Now, we are in the shift of New Energy. In this shift we are also building our new system based on this New Energy, while breaking down the Old Energy. We are doing these 2 things together. It seems quite hard, there are many emotions that we need to break down in ourselfs. We are breaking down the past beliefsystems that are not working anymore. It is not compatible with the New Earth/New Energy.
I myself in the past two years started to work on my self truly. Before that, I just thought I do it.
I started to build myself and change myself to the person I always wanted to be. Who I am.
My true self is happy, curious, fun, discoverer, pioneer, originator. I decided I want to be this person. And I am on my way to become this version of myself. My true self.
I am not gonna lie, it is super hard sometimes. Maybe it was the hardest part of my life, but also the happiest.
It is hard to change my personality. It is hard to react differently in the situations that I reacted one way.
But I knew I wanted this.
So every minute, every day, every week, I tried my best to become her.
I am not finished, I think I never will be. I am on my way. I am on the right path. I am where I want to be.
Some days are really hard, still.
Some days I just want to give up everything, because it seems too tiring.
Some days it seems just impossible.
But I never give up.
I made up my mind.
I want to share joy and help people to feel and understand that this is possible.
It is possible to live better and better.
Sometimes, I also have to remind myself.
Today, I felt lost, weak, uninspired and bad.
I started to write this after a long time and listen to some music (Estas Tonne is always a magician for me).
Now I feel better a little bit.
Never forget, creation is being comfortable to the unknown.
Sometimes it seems scary when you don\’t know what is next.
But, I believe life.